February 13th-19th

The problem which lies within thee, has yet to be resolved

Demon you haunt me still,

Leave me please through the windowsill

Remove me and grant me a mind,

At peace, sound and fine.

Ah, this week, not much out of the blue has happened and everything has more or less gone as I expected really. If you care to know, I usually plan a week all in my head before I go to sleep and sometimes I adjust based on the situations. Unfortunately, I am not always accurate due to unforeseen circumstances such as parent's sudden outings and stuff like that. When this kind of things occur, my mood usually turns sour because my plans have been interrupted. Sometimes I really wish my parents or friends tell me these events at least a day before.

One thing I'd like to stress about is that I hate waiting nor do I like to keep people waiting. This trait of me really infuriates me sometimes because my transporter is always late by about 20 minutes every single time. This has gone on since I was twelve and sometimes she has kept me waiting for over an hour. I wish I could change my transporter but unfortunately, she is my grandmother... Nevertheless I always think to myself "One more year left", and sometimes it helps to calm me but not always. This trait of mine is probably what gave me a walking habit since I was fifteen. At some point of time, I was fed up with how late my grandmother comes to fetch me that I walked all the way home which took about 45 minutes and somehow I reached home earlier than my grandmother because you see, she was working as a transporter as well so she had to fetch other kids home too.

Oh yes, this week was the week with Valentines Day occurred. To me and most people I'm guessing, this was an ordinary day as any other. I do not like the concept of Valentines Day because of one reason, why do you only do something special on only this day? If you truly loved somebody, you should make everyday special. Another reason why I dislike this day is because people buy roses and stuff for the person they love. To me this is very materialistic and love is not something you can give just by buying stuff. There are many other ways I'm sure you can do to show how much you like the person but buying to me is not. One last thing is that during this day, stalkers appear as well. I have seen some of my friends getting stuff which had no name attached as to who sent it and it seems weird to me.

The cold, dripping snow,

Wash away my lonely fears,

Freeze to oblivion.