Drama

As I see you, there isn't a thing I want to change because you are amazing just the way you are.

Life is a big stage,

And everyone actors,

So just do your best.

Drama, what is it really? Is it a performance made towards the audience for pleasure? In my opinion a drama is something that entertains others and the message has to be clear and well-received in order for the audience to understand what in the world is happening. I have been involved in this particular drama which the theme was entitled 'Environment' and my class' drama was mostly about good versus evil towards the environment. It was the usual bad person who hates the environment and promotes technology whereas the good person is trying to save the environment.

In any case, I was meant to be a tree only but for certain reasons I was promoted to be the main villain whose name was Vladimir. This experience for me was enlightening so to say. I noticed the amount of hard work that certain people have to do and without them the play will not be half as well as it is. Kudos I say to our director, Carmen, our scriptwriter, Sze Yuin, our costume designer, Jiin-May, and lastly our prop designer, Yi Lin. I realize that the most important people in the drama are not the actors but those that are backstage. I wish those people above a big thank you for their help and for the rest of the class for their support.

I have observed for the most part how the drama came into existence though not in specific detail. I have been to the script writing meetings, as well as helped out with the props on one occasion and I have to say that it was more or less productive but at the end of the day, they were splendidly made both script and props and I am proud to say I helped out even if just for a bit. This drama has also been a great bonding experience for me as I come to know more the people in my class through the many many meetings.

During practices however, most of the time it was really disorganized due to people who played about most of the time and those who always come late. It was infuriating for me as you know I do not like wasting time and I feel bad for people who were in charge such as Pn Monica our teacher and our director, Carmen. In other words, practices were usually chaotic and most of the time ruined. Somehow during the last few practices, the people involved showed better behavior and are less destructive and we were able to perfect our roles on the last one. Maybe I assume is because the pressure of the real thing.

On the day itself, my class was as I see giddy with excitement and almost everyone seemed like they  were rushing for something in particular. That day was also the first time I had to put eyeliner. Gosh was it terrible and I have no idea how girls do it so easily. The hardest part was keeping my eyes open and removing it was a pain as well. Anyways I hope I will not have to do it again and moving onward, the actors and those involved were probably nervous I guess and keen to have it over with. It was the final leg of the race and after practicing for a long time we wanted to ascertain our victory or so was what my director and teacher wished.

During acting I was a bit nauseated as usual when I'm nervous but it soon vanished. How? Because when I am acting my spectacles were removed and with my eyesight with a power that is over 500 enabled me to be unable to see anyone clearly. All because of that I thought to myself there is nobody watching and I acted as I did during practice with a tad bit louder voice. By golly, I did not know my voice could reach that level which boomed across the whole hall. Anyways I found out that some people's opinion of me changed whether it is for the worse or the better. Frankly, I did not know how well my class' drama did compared to others because I did not really focus my attention to the rest of the classes and I apologize for that. All in all, this drama to me was productive as it allowed me to grow as well as know more about myself and my capabilities. I found this on the internet which is a short but great phrase "Know thyself" by Socrates.

The world is devoid of emptiness,

A sun that will forever shine,

Like a mother who will caress,

Such is earth's love so divine.

February 13th-19th

The problem which lies within thee, has yet to be resolved

Demon you haunt me still,

Leave me please through the windowsill

Remove me and grant me a mind,

At peace, sound and fine.

Ah, this week, not much out of the blue has happened and everything has more or less gone as I expected really. If you care to know, I usually plan a week all in my head before I go to sleep and sometimes I adjust based on the situations. Unfortunately, I am not always accurate due to unforeseen circumstances such as parent's sudden outings and stuff like that. When this kind of things occur, my mood usually turns sour because my plans have been interrupted. Sometimes I really wish my parents or friends tell me these events at least a day before.

One thing I'd like to stress about is that I hate waiting nor do I like to keep people waiting. This trait of me really infuriates me sometimes because my transporter is always late by about 20 minutes every single time. This has gone on since I was twelve and sometimes she has kept me waiting for over an hour. I wish I could change my transporter but unfortunately, she is my grandmother... Nevertheless I always think to myself "One more year left", and sometimes it helps to calm me but not always. This trait of mine is probably what gave me a walking habit since I was fifteen. At some point of time, I was fed up with how late my grandmother comes to fetch me that I walked all the way home which took about 45 minutes and somehow I reached home earlier than my grandmother because you see, she was working as a transporter as well so she had to fetch other kids home too.

Oh yes, this week was the week with Valentines Day occurred. To me and most people I'm guessing, this was an ordinary day as any other. I do not like the concept of Valentines Day because of one reason, why do you only do something special on only this day? If you truly loved somebody, you should make everyday special. Another reason why I dislike this day is because people buy roses and stuff for the person they love. To me this is very materialistic and love is not something you can give just by buying stuff. There are many other ways I'm sure you can do to show how much you like the person but buying to me is not. One last thing is that during this day, stalkers appear as well. I have seen some of my friends getting stuff which had no name attached as to who sent it and it seems weird to me.

The cold, dripping snow,

Wash away my lonely fears,

Freeze to oblivion.

February 6th-12th

Dear me, I seem to have taken a liking to writing haiku's.

Gloomy, falling rain,

Despite nature's fervent call,

Everyday you weep.

This week started off with an awesome holiday which was literally a walk for me. Being at tuition in the morning, opposite my school (SMKDJ) I walked towards CentrePoint where my schoolmates and my teacher were there to practice my class' drama. I was still early in the morning (10.00a.m.) so it would be a refreshing walk BUT the smoking vehicles spoiled it and the air was quite filthy with dust and gas. Still, cars, vans, etc were necessary so I cannot blame them but still, I dislike it. Anyways, after the practice, I had another tuition which was back in Damansara Jaya at about 5.15p.m. so walk again I did. This time it was much much worse because I started walking at about 3.45p.m. so the sun was up pouring it's heat rays down towards me. This also made me detour to Damansara Utama (Uptown) to grab a drink before heading back to Damansara Jaya.

As the days go by, the usual school continues with not much difference happening aside from the topics teachers taught. On Friday, after school however, I was invited to my friend's house in the afternoon. This friend of mine is also the person who taught me guitar and this week he agreed to teach me some of the Physics' concepts that eluded me. Even though he thinks himself of a bad teacher, I think otherwise. His teaching was very in-depth and he constantly made analogies to help me understand. This helped me in my struggle to understand Physics from a different perspective.

The day wasn't over however, as I soon as I reached home, I left my house immediately to a food court in Taman Megah (Ming Tien). I had dinner there alone as my mom dropped me off there and soon I left to another friend's house to do our Add Math's Project which was to build a 3D object. It was not completed on that day itself so I agreed to come another day which was Sunday. On Sunday, the object we were making was almost done but still required some finishing touches to fully complete it.

This Saturday was a school day which I did not attend. After hearing many of my friends' thoughts of school on Saturday, my decision to go to school wavered and it finally turned around at about Friday midnight. My reasons were similar to those who did not go and they are because my history teacher announced that she was not going to teach on Saturday, my Physics and my PJ teacher were busy with some celebration in school, and after recess, students have to go to the hall for a talk. All this really discouraged me from attending school mainly because I will not learn anything even if I attended school.

Defile my sanctuary if you dare, 

My innermost place in which I care,

I commend you to do so,

For none has achieved till this day,

Alone I'll be with my mangled crow,

Till the day I am able to say:
Peace be with you,

In all that you do.

Night Without End

Red Ice in Greenland

by Zhi Hao

This incident happened when an airliner crashed in the middle of desolate ice-cap in Greenland save for some a few scientists who are doing research. A call for help was received because of a mission to save the survivors along with a scientist who helped them from cold and starvation. On the way there however, there was a scene happening right before my eyes as I approached the glacier.

There was a tractor which was going ahead at rate that was very dangerous on such steep,narrow and slippery land and there was another vehicle trailing it's steps. However the tractor came to a stop after a while then we heard a gun shot coming from the tractor and a man (which I presume was a hostage that tried to fight back) was laid out on the snow which was bloodied (he fortunately survived). A man named Zagero from the second vehicle emerged and attacked the person (Corazzini) who shot the man (Zagero's father) and killed him after a short battle. The criminal's accomplice (Smallwood) escaped with another hostage (Margaret) by the tractor but  fell into a crevasse. The scientist (Dr. Mason) hurried over, dropped a rope and jumped down. After a while, Margaret was pulled up with the help of Dr. Mason's friends and coming behind was Dr. Mason himself. There was no sign of Smallwood who fell in. In the end, the crevasse closed up, and so ending the life of the last criminal.

January 30th - February 5th

Okay now it is time for February the exceptional month of every year just because it has less days.

Monday and Tuesday a holiday,

Long days at home,

Should stay and play?

Or go out and roam?

The first week of February, is just as any other normal week in school as well as at home. For starters however, some interesting thing happened to me which is I was pulled out in front of the whole taekwando club to be the example beside the master. This really surprised me because I'm sure the master did not know me beforehand and yet he picked me. I guess it has to do with my rank in taekwando but still.....

On another hand, this incident happened to me on Friday on my way home. Which was, it started to drizzle steadily at first then it became a downpour. This may not seem a big deal to most people but to me it was a disastrous moment because I was on the way walking home. I still needed around 15 minutes of walking to cover so as the norm, I stated walking faster. Unfortunately, it was to no avail as the downpour caught me and I was drenched in rainwater as I reached home. My resolution since last year to bring an umbrella has long since forgotten and I always regret when this happens. Anyways, I cannot say for certain that this has not affected me in any way besides getting me wet because I have been feeling signs of being sick since then. In order to overcome this, I will repeatedly convince myself I am fine and hopefully it'll all work out in the end.

Hmm, now on to the oncoming event, Valentines Day. I have never really paid much attention to this day and usually I come to forget the date of this event every year until someone tells me when is it. I just recently found out about the reason of Valentines Day whether it is a rumor in history or not. Basically it originated from this person Saint Valentine who was captured and persecuted as a Christian and later executed which literally had nothing to do with romance. Yet the world revolves in mysterious ways and thus came about Valentine's Day.

The hands of the clock begin to hasten,

So put on your seat belts locked and fastened,

Its the second month already, time has flown,

And in that short span you have grown,

No more delaying, it is fated.

The race has begun, have you started?

January 1-31st

Year 2012, a year which will end my schooling life as well as determine how will I fare outside.

Thus my wings are clipped,

Only looking at the blue sky,

Whenever my head starts to dip,

I try and try until I can fly.

What a month it was. A start of a brand new year, new class and many others. To me however, I feel that the start of this year quite depressing. It is because two of my good friends had to leave Malaysia and it'll be a long time since I'll ever meet up with them again. Nevertheless I will strive to improve myself in order for them to be able to call me friend. 


Anyways, enough of the depressing stuff, I had myself a new hairdo as my friends have noticed.

Before

After

And this is the product of it.

For the beginning of the year, it meant that tuitions and curriculum activities have again started for students in SMKDJ. Among these curriculum activities, I was anointed as the head of the chess and scrabble club as well as the head of sports in my school house 'Hebat'. Thus, many responsibilities were thrust towards me and I had to make sure that I carry it out to the letter. I hope my new year's resolution has not yet wavered as I continue to pursue what I want in life.


In school, several things have changed since last year. Such as the transfer of Encik Khairul or more commonly known as 'Mr K'. I feel that this is quite unfair as my friend Emir is still in SMKDJ but the father is transferred to another school thus making it inconvenient for both father and son. Anyways besides that the food served in the school canteen is sadly the same since last year. I had hoped for an improvement but it was not forthcoming and so I go without eating recess everyday. This isn't such a big issue to me because I usually go for prayer meetings with my friends from CF.


One thing I dislike is music made by drums alone. Recently, I went to KLCC for a concert which my mom had gotten complimentary tickets. The concert was a great show and I liked it but what I did not like was after the concert when we came out. There was a lot of drums staged in the middle of KLCC and my mom wanted to watch it and so we stayed for a while. And for that short while, I have come to dislike drums played alone. You see, when drums are playing, I feel that my blood begins to boil, and my temper becomes short, in other words, I felt angry at who or what I do not know. All because of that incident, I feel that I do not want myself to become like that and I dislike drums for making me so. 


Onward to the next topic : Chinese New Year.  This year's harvest was pretty good but I cannot say for absolute certainty that it beats last year's crop but anyways I'll just be contented with what I have. For this year's Chinese New Year (CNY), I went back to Sitiawan where my hometown is located. There I met my grandfather and my other relatives as well. My uncle took us to his prawn/fish farm where he reared fish and prawns which was usual and wanted to let us fish but unfortunately, all the big ones were recently shipped to be sold by the workers. 

Lastly, as my entree comes to an end, I hope that everyday I wake up will be a blessing and not a curse. I pray that I will feel this way whether or not the emotions within me such as love, hate, happiness, sorrow, etc continue to fester. At the end, I will do my best to conquer them and come out on top. 

Life is full of complications,

Throughout the many living nations,

So why not make things simple,

All with a smile and a dimple.